Anonymous asked: It's just...I've been giving serious consideration to killing myself for the past few days. Like, I feel like I'm running out of reasons not to. I don't know what to do anymore.
I would tell you not to do so. I know that people give reasons like “oh, it’s selfish of you” and “well think about x, they’d be sad” (given, people would prob’ly be sad if you killed yourself) and I’m sure that there are other things people say, but I cannot think of anything else.
Still, I’d advise you not to do so. Not because people will miss you (though they will, it’s kinda just a fact, no matter how much you think they’ll be better off without you or something, they will still miss you), not because you’re selfish (trust me, you aren’t), not because I’m better than you and you should listen to me (everyone, to me, is generally on a level playing field, therefore, no one is better than anyone else), no.
You should be here for you. You should strive to make yourself feel better and to put yourself first and you should always make yourself happy. You come first, as does your happiness and everything else about you. everyone else should come second. Doesn’t matter if you’re religious or not, because if you’re not treating yourself right, then no one else should be put before you, not even any sort of god/s.
I know that it prob’ly feels as though you’re at the end of your rope. Trust me, I know how that feels and it’s terrible. And, again, I don’t want to say things get better or worse because I can’t see into the future. If I could, that would be amazing and I’d prob’ly be out helping everyone I could. Alas, I can’t.
Regardless, it’s a terrible feeling. That feeling where you think you’ve done all you could and you can’t figure out any reason to stay here. But, keep chugging along. I know that that’s prob’ly a terrible thing to say, but just keep going.
Like I said to the previous annon, make goals. When you meet those goals, do something nice for yourself. The goals could be small steps, like improving the way you live, saving up to move out (putting a little bit of money away from a paycheck, if you work, is always a good idea in general), trying new things (like food or a new activity like hiking), improving your health or your environment and the treats could be simple like getting something you’ve had your eye on or going out to the movies or just having a day off and go and explore the world that day.
I’m not one to sit here and be bossy, s’not what I’m here for. But, It would be awesome if you’d reconsider and try out things. And, Annon, I want you to be strong. I know that it might be quite a task, but please try. *hugs*
And, I’m here for you, regardless. You, and anyone else, can come to me at any time and I will most certainly try and get back to you asap! I will try to be as helpful and nonjudgemental as I can and you’ll always have my shoulder to lean on if you need it.